Jason

well yea we are gonna get hit by a cat 5 hurricane YAAY!!

i saw saved! today, it was pretty funny, a lot of making fun of the bible thumpers. i enjoyed it, there was a couple in front of us making out which was kinda middle school. and when they walked out rick, steve and i looked back at the girl and she was nasty. so we were like OOOH man. no wonder he does it in the movie theater. anyway i have to get back to reading...chem sucks. who cares about if a system is at equillbrium..blah..i work tomorrow so that will be a blast...lets see what else oh, the new underoath stuff is really good check it out
www.purevolume.com/underoath
and thats about it for tonight

and remember jesus loves you,
j

yea i got a call tonight from my dad and i knew right when i saw his name come up on my phone it was bad news. and when i answered the phone i could hear it in his voice. my grandma had passed. i had prepared myself, i knew she was not in good shape, my dad had been keeping me updated as to her health and it was deteriating as the days went by. But still i know she is happy now, she was just in to much pain to carry on. it also had me thinking about how little contact i had with my grandma with her living out on the west coast. and how you don't get to see your family so often. i hadn't seen her in years i think 97 was the last time i saw her. you really don't know what you've lost until one day it just isn't there anymore. i try not to take the people around me for granted but once distance comes in you tend to loose touch.

its times like these when you want to be held as you fall asleep. well this is something ill have to live with. goodnight all. don't take life for granted. cherish everyone you meet.

jay

www.llrrecords.com

check it out

your pants will melt...

chemistry and nerdy professors are a waste of time...

never trust sorority girls...

so today is friday, chem 2 class is a waste cause the prof just sits there and blabs for an hour and does a stupid experiment that almost kills the front row. he did one with baloons filled one with helieum and the other with hydrogen and put a flame to them, i am in the front row of course cause im a huge nerd. The baloon goes up like a bomb, and flames like 4 feet up. so yea i hate that class. plus 99.99% of the girls in there aren't very attractive and all they do is talk about school. thats what you get for taking science classes, you get the pick of the litter!!. so i have to cover a shift tonight 645 to close and then im off to a party at the girls house. that should be interesting i get to see what college girls are made of, alcohol and mistakes. going to those parties just makes me that much more a loner. i am truly on a hill in the middle of nowhere. just looking around...anyway i think im gonna go finish lotr and try not to get to depressed that i am watching it all alone. at least have i have the 5.1 dobly digital ex sound to keep me company, sometimes i think that eye thing is gonna pop out and kill me. wow so i am a huge dork. anyway. i am gonna keep this updated so maybe i can actually dedicate myself to something. out.

music: goodbye tomorrow- by a thread

on a side note, the girl i "hooked up" with this weekend, never called me back, and is probaly totally absent of any recollection of what happened. little does she know, she is letting go something that would be good for her. but there lies the problem a majority of girls cant' see what is good for them, especially at this age. they have to knock their heads a couple times before they wise up. no offense to anyone who is not like this. but its try look around and see how many girls you know who have had to get totally wrecked by the guy they are dating before they eventually realize what is going on. it takes a while. anyway i need to stop talking about girls.
over and out.
big j

another week has gone by, mich is on her way up to see me, i think i really need to see her, im starting to forget what its like to have a girl who really cares about me...and not just like a hook up...mich cares about me for me. she loves who i am. its really nice to have someone like that, i consider myself very lucky to have found someone, esecially living in a society of college kids with their sacrifical moral standards. i'm losing more hope in girls as i come in contact with more of their actions. i see what they do to themselves and it just makes it clear to me, as in why they aren't attracted to me. i am everything that they aren't looking for in someone that they at least are attracted to. i am the opposite of the guys that treat them like they are objects. its funny you spend your whole life trying to not be the guy on the other side of the spectrum but they always seem to end up on top when it comes to women. funny how the women psych works. i don't think ill ever understand. and i thought that all the immaturity would end when i go to college, it is just 10x worse, because girls have a larger population of assholes to pick from. well im still here, watching them fall, ill be the one to pick them back up...just don't let me fall. because the population of guys who would treat you like you should be treated is small. okay im done with this rant...
i've fell for to many of your promises....

i had a dream last night that i had sex with 3 girls, i went into some kind of store front and 3 chicks were there, and they just had sex with me, weird, anyway its hot out and i am searching around for some wireless gear for my new townhouse, wow im a dork

i want a summer love....

big jay

i never go on this, but im bored so i will
i love everyone i meet, i just want people to know that

this song is really good:
"by a thread"

You've got my world on a string, but the funny thing is:
The only thing hanging from that string is you
Well, I couldn't care more and you couldn't care less
You ran a river through my eyes

You gave me nothing and now its all I have left
I gave you all I could, but everything wasn't enough

I fell for too many of your promises
And even the empty ones you managed to break
You wouldn't know honesty if it knocked at your door
Well, here I am...I knocked, let me in?

You gave me nothing and now its all I have left
I gave you all I could, but everything wasn't enough

I played the fool for you

You gave me nothing at all
I gave you all I could, but everything wasn't enough for you
But I'm not enough for you

anyway its 3 am and i should sleep so i don't go crazy again

{Music} Halifax-Call all your reserves

Yea. this weekend has been super boring. Casey is in OK. with the cows and tornadoes. I miss her more everyday. Love is nice. Last night was funny. i found out about everyone a little more. "Never have i ever" lol. Oh and my pug is doing good. her foot is still a little swollen but she is a trooper. she slept with me this morning. Dogs are the best. I am still waiting for the medication to kick in. Hopefully soon. I need to get my ass up and get a job do something with my life. Yea it stopped raining finally. happy memorial day weekend. BAH. I will try to write more in this. it seems to be the hip thing to do. Well this is jason....signing off